tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-51602248938573641352024-02-18T20:03:25.281-08:00Matt Hardie BlogFor Matt, his family and friends.Chris H.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12265475208006180436noreply@blogger.comBlogger67125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-19403749387175642982013-01-25T13:30:00.004-08:002013-01-25T13:30:58.061-08:00Another MRH dream<div class="uiStreamMessage userContentWrapper" data-ft="{"type":1,"tn":"K"}">
<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><span class="userContent">Another
Matt Hardie dream last night....involving that red VW jetta shitbox, me
driving, and Matt telling me to 'chill out, Stef. Stop stressing.' from
the passenger seat. I awoke at the exact moment I was about to give him
shit. <br /> <br /> I never know exactly how to take these dreams (I have
them every few weeks) and I'm not quite certain if I'm reliving a true
memory of something that really happened or if these are fictitious
actual "dreams". What I do know is that, after a few seconds of 'huh
wtf?', I remember he's gone. And that part does feel real. On that
alone, if you believe in such things, then he controls the dreams and
they are his way of showing that he is still punching away at a darkness
he did not ask for.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><span class="userContent">Kate, if you <span style="font-size: small;">see this, can you get in touch with me via email: clarke.stef@gmail.com </span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><span class="userContent"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I changed phones and mobile provid<span style="font-size: small;">ers. I don't have your contact in<span style="font-size: small;">fo and, at last, I think I <span style="font-size: small;">am 'unsad' enough to talk. xx - stef</span></span></span></span> </span> </span></span></span></span></div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-39122334212972100542011-12-26T14:33:00.000-08:002011-12-26T14:35:31.039-08:00NEVER FORGOTTENThanks to all who remember and still do.......................................KHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-81459248806828915082011-10-05T21:37:00.000-07:002011-10-05T21:37:37.074-07:00October 4th - 1 year laterIt's still hard to think about the accident and all it took from us. The intersection where Matt's accident occurred became the focal point of Spokane's new bike loop reconstruction program. The bike loop construction included bike lanes and better visibility for motorists and cyclists alike. It was completed this August. A ghost bike remains at the intersection. I have new friends in Spokane who send me updates and pictures. I'm grateful to them (Thanks Tomas) for keeping me "in the loop". RIP Matt Hardie. This doesn't get any easier. damn.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIGd9D26zD5e9pZ2t_IejiM7s1h550DJ569HAPhmniyFcfDPyg3HWsHVua04LM29BkBLpoO4lSrpKY9JwuYuH9cax1NOh48vzYROxujeyFufU3GOyrFaWWsHq5W_5q7p6OHkIa8VFMuIoW/s1600/201371_2035372565616_1283270681_32500761_2294996_o.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIGd9D26zD5e9pZ2t_IejiM7s1h550DJ569HAPhmniyFcfDPyg3HWsHVua04LM29BkBLpoO4lSrpKY9JwuYuH9cax1NOh48vzYROxujeyFufU3GOyrFaWWsHq5W_5q7p6OHkIa8VFMuIoW/s320/201371_2035372565616_1283270681_32500761_2294996_o.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-21707428101545465492011-08-01T20:42:00.000-07:002011-08-01T20:42:08.796-07:00July 28, 2011 - Matt's Birthday and Kiwago Reunion<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWvxJBEdUS-x7eTt6jwOcU43Z827y9Mzu0P3ANYmwBVYPoqzooxRgdFcQvo5qbUWiTsBn4iWMAwv6NrWJHmvd8XJjN-y8yNTd0QmErCO9MYmcNd6Na14f-P1hx51Je3cKLlFfxyfEa9QtP/s1600/IMG_0278.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWvxJBEdUS-x7eTt6jwOcU43Z827y9Mzu0P3ANYmwBVYPoqzooxRgdFcQvo5qbUWiTsBn4iWMAwv6NrWJHmvd8XJjN-y8yNTd0QmErCO9MYmcNd6Na14f-P1hx51Je3cKLlFfxyfEa9QtP/s320/IMG_0278.JPG" width="320" /></a></div>On Matt's 33rd birthday, we gathered at Kiwago to remember him. There is more to say on this but for now I want to leave you with a picture of our Kiwago memorial for him.<br />
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I miss you like you were here yesterday and now gone. When the grief hits hard, as it does often, I wonder if I will ever really make it through. I wish you knew how bright a light you were to so many people, beloved friend.<br />
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~ StefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-88942294217371363062011-03-19T16:36:00.000-07:002011-03-19T16:36:06.924-07:00These last 3 months...It is already March of 2011. Hard to believe that Matt left us three months ago. I think of him often. The times when he is apparent in my consciousness along with the times when he hovers in my sub-conscious are numerous. I often have a case of the 'what ifs?' even though I understand that torturing myself by contemplating 'destiny' is kind of pointless now.<br />
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I have renewed energy with the thawing of the snow and have tuned my bike in anticipation of the clearing roads. He is in each part of that machinery. Matt and the art of bicycle maintenance. When I ride now I ride for him. <br />
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Be well, everyone.<br />
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StefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-48431288769461967512011-01-08T19:04:00.000-08:002011-01-08T19:06:40.561-08:00Spectacle and SpectacularMy dear friend, Matt Hardie, abhorred spectacle, drama, or anything to do with preoccupation with artifice. He believed in living authentically and spectacularly while also humbling himself in the face of humanity.<br />
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I think of you every day, Matt. I think of the joy and the insight you brought to my life. And I miss you.<br />
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Beyond spectacle, you are spectacular.<br />
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I love you. I miss you more. <br />
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StefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-90353945066467228292010-12-27T11:56:00.000-08:002010-12-27T11:56:43.122-08:00I posted a photo and some thoughts here: <a href="http://bikegrrrl.blogspot.com/">http://bikegrrrl.blogspot.com</a><br />
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I'm sorry I can not be there today. My thoughts are with all of you as we continue to celebrate our marvelous friend, brother, human being. love, stefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-46276608747563111812010-12-24T10:16:00.000-08:002010-12-24T10:18:44.121-08:00Matt's Obituary in the Herald TimesHere is Matt's Obituary. Chris Hosler worked with Matt's family to write it. It is beautiful. I have added it here, for those who are not able to log into the Hoosier Times website.<br /><br /><blockquote><h3>Matthew Robert Hardie, 32</h3> <p><strong>JULY 28, 1978 — DEC. 14, 2010</strong> </p><p>SPOKANE, Wash. — Matthew Robert Hardie passed away on Tuesday, December 14, 2010, at Hospice in Spokane, Washington, after a heroic effort to overcome his injuries. He was the son of Michael and Anne (Bobbitt) Hardie, born on July 28, 1978, in Wausau, Wisconsin. </p><p>Matt attended elementary and middle school in Columbia, Missouri, and moved to Bloomington, Indiana, where he attended Bloomington High School South, graduating in 1996. He attended the University of Guelph in Ontario, Canada. </p><p>Traveling and experiencing life in new places was one of Matt’s favorite activities. Matt moved from Bloomington to Spokane, Washington, in 1998, and from there called places such as Portland, Oregon; and Scottsdale and Prescott, Arizona home. He visited countless cities across the country as far flung as New Orleans and Fairbanks, Alaska. Matt spent several happy summers at Homes for the Homeless’ Camp Kiwago in upstate New York, working with homeless children from New York City. He returned to Spokane earlier in 2010. </p><p>Matt touched many, many lives in his travels, delighting his friends with his infectious sense of humor and setting an example of active social consciousness. Matt had a lifelong love of reading, and was always one of the most knowledgeable and well-spoken participants in a debate. He was also a paramount example of fortitude in the face of adversity, having overcome non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. He was an avid music fan, and part of the music scene wherever he happened to be. He loved cycling, was a member of the Beanpole collective, and enjoyed acting in high school in Theatre South and in Monroe County Civic Theater, as well as in sketch comedy television. Some of his friends knew him for decades and others for only a few weeks, but all were touched by his warmth, upheld by his support, and brightened by his sweet smile. </p><p>Matt is survived by his fiercely loving sister, Katherine Hardie and her partner Bo Baker, both of Spokane, WA; his nephew, Jack Baker of Spokane, WA; his adoptive stepfather, Rich Waltrip of Spokane, WA; his aunt Susi Schumaker of Overland Park, KS; and numerous other aunts and uncles. </p><p>Matt is preceded in death by his parents. </p><p>A memorial pitch-in will be held at The Bishop, 123 S. Walnut St., Bloomington IN, Monday December 27, 2010, from 7-10 p.m. for friends and family. </p><p>At the family’s request in lieu of flowers, condolences and monetary gifts for future donations to causes dear to Matt can be given at Matt’s blog, <a target="_blank" href="http://matthardie.blogspot.com/">http://matthardie.blogspot.com</a>. </p></blockquote>katehesspacehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01054380309476402886noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-26896187919542419952010-12-23T14:36:00.000-08:002010-12-23T14:39:42.346-08:00Memorial / wake for Matt, 12.27, 7 p.m.Hello everyone.<br />
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<b>There will be a memorial service and / or wake for Matt Hardie on Monday, December 27th, at 7 p.m</b>. It will be at <a href="http://www.thebishopbar.com/">The Bishop</a>, at 123 South Walnut in Bloomington, Indiana.<br />
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Please join us if you'd like to remember Matt. We hope that this will be an event of comfort and celebration for those who were part of Matt's life, and who would like to share their experiences and stories with others.<br />
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Thanks,<br />
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AlisonAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-42706432641012162692010-12-21T15:09:00.000-08:002010-12-26T11:15:43.169-08:00I had to correct some info<span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" ><span style="font-size:85%;">I've edited this post several times now, which is why I stopped posting....I get too over protective of Kate & Matt, info changes day to day & I have messed up on quite a few details </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255); font-weight: bold;font-size:85%;" >(LIKE DONATIONS)</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><br />Kate's been doing an excellent job. I haven't posted much lately because it's so emotionally heartbreaking and I hardly know what to write. Not sure if I've even helped Kate...</span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" >and/or got much accomplished </span><span style="font-size:78%;">(please don't write to me about whether or not I'm 'doing a good job'. I don't really care what people think of me....I just want to get a message across. I'm also feeling very mad & sad after Matt's death and probably will not (should not-smile) post anything after this.<br /><br />Like Kate will discover...and all the many friends Matt had...Time will help ease the pain. But, right now, I just want to write this one thing.<br /><br />I can't imagine anyone doing ALL that Kate did for Matt while he was in various hospitals, the nursing home..and finally the hospice. No matter how tired she was (and let me tell you she had been running full speed since Oct 4) she would, at the hospice, gown up, put on the mask, gloves, booties and I noticed that she shrugged off all her worries, tiredness and stress to become this sister/nurse for Matt. She always spoke so cheerfully to him no matter what she really felt like. I am not sure I know anyone who could do what Kate did - not only learn some of the basic nursing skills & how to take care of Matt but also keep going when she was running on empty. On top of that, she has tried so hard to focus on Jack and keep doing all the 'mom stuff' - which, at the end of the day, leaves her with hardly any time to rest. I can only do so much since I don't live in Spokane and I think that maybe writing this will be helpful as she is STILL busy, busy, busy. I have NO IDEA how Kate is keeping on going, getting things done, going from meetings to buy groceries to pick up Jack, etc.<br /></span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:78%;">As I understand it, the event in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Bloomington</span> will be<span style="font-style: italic;"> mostly in the tradition of a wake</span> (and I'm paraphrasing Kate) where Matt's friends gather together and celebrate his life. </span><span style="font-size:78%;">He did not like many of the things associated with a typical funeral. It sounds like whomever is helping Kate plan things is doing a good job - thank you SO much.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"> </span></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);font-size:78%;" >The main thing I wanted to point out is that </span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);font-size:78%;" >in order to actually get there Kate, Bo need to have funds or everyone will be there except Kate, Bo & Jack. </span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);font-size:78%;" >Due to various family circumstances (when it rains, it pours) our family is not in a position to help Kate financially. I wish we were but I feel I need to mention this because I want to make it clear that Kate is scrambling to make things work financially. I shouldn't have written that "Kate's aunts & uncles are helping out financially" but I was writing really fast and actually hadn't had confirmation from them; I was<span style="font-style: italic;"> hoping</span> that we (family) could pull enough money together to take care of all the expenses - but I jumped the gun on that one. </span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br /><br />The various expenses are so numerous to list that I can't even begin to do that. But, for example, buying gas was a huge expense. We ended up using $30 in gas in one day and all we were doing was going back and forth to the hospice to a grocery store on the way home - nothing major - but the vehicle she was using ate up a lot of gas. That surprised me but also made me realize how costly just the gas expenses were. Another example: Eugene, Matt's dog who is allergic to wheat, needs special high priced dog food; I think he's due for shots, too.<br /><br /> I will say that Kate's aunts and uncles are really being supportive; I've been talking to them more...mainly to be the Info Person, partly because Kate's phone keeps dying but mainly because she's busy trying to coordinate Matt's wake/funeral in Bloomington.<br /><br />I do want to say that Matt & Kate's dad, Rich, has been awesome throughout this whole time. He's been a rock through all of this and is there for support, etc. except when his job or family emergencies call him out of town. He's been the one that has been there whenever Kate calls.</span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" > I mention this because I think I </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" >inadvertently</span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" > didn't write about him</span><span style="font-size:78%;">. He's always ready to help with Jack and opened his house to Matt's friends while working and taking phone calls & emails left and right. I think Kate is very lucky to have someone like him for support. He's been a rock for me, too.<br /><br /> I know that there are several companies, such as television, newspaper and individuals following this blog. I hope that they might feel the need to donate since they are following this blog (and using that information which somehow is able to be accessed through the internet. I had thought that the only people that could read/follow this blog we those who were sent 'invitations' - but I guess not.<br />To me, knowing that 'non-invited' people are following the blog feels much the same as knowing uninvited strangers are going through your house, looking at all your personal things. It is stressful and traumatic enough to deal with Matt's death that that kind of thing is very upsetting.<br />I do hope they want to "put something back in the blog", even though they have no responsibility to do so.</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:85%;" >But, like all of us, no one person can pull together enough money (which so many decisions are based on) to totally set things up for Kate so she can do for her brother what he deserved and wanted.<br />I'm hoping that.....together....we can donate enough to help her do this for Matt.</span><br /></div>Susihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13672588027309885875noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-25247712656043424482010-12-20T19:31:00.000-08:002010-12-20T19:34:11.502-08:00Music for the serviceEveryone who knew Matt knew how much he loved music. I am collecting song ideas for the memorial. Could be songs that you knew he liked, songs that remind you of him, or songs that you think he would have liked. Anything, really. Please suggest songs in the comments below. Thank you.katehesspacehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01054380309476402886noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-22934728043211550642010-12-19T15:29:00.000-08:002010-12-19T15:30:17.023-08:00PLEASE READ: Request for donations for Matt's memorial service(s)Hello everyone,<br />
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We are putting together a small memorial service in Indiana, where many of Matt's friends live. The service in Indiana will be on the 27th (more info to come). There will also be something in Spokane.<br />
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<b> </b><b>Thank you so much who have donated in the past and since Matt's passing. </b><br />
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<b>If you haven't yet contributed, please consider donating now to help with plane tickets, an obituary, food, the rented space, flowers, etc. We are starting from scratch and so every little bit counts. </b><br />
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<u>We need donations as soon as possible</u> to coordinate the memorial and also the service in Spokane. Please spread the word-- forward this as an email (don't forget to link to the blog), put it on your FB page, etc. <br />
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Thanks to everyone for all your condolences-- I know it means a lot to Matt's family.<br />
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Alison<br />
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P.S. Also: please, please send pictures of Matt to Kate at katherine_hardie@yahoo.com ASAP, for a slide show for the service.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-72418990626072547092010-12-19T06:56:00.000-08:002010-12-19T06:56:17.923-08:00Photos and Song for Matt & KateI didn't want to post here because Kate's message needs to be read. My thoughts and love are with her.<br />
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I just posted links to a few photo albums of Matt here: <a href="http://bikegrrrl.blogspot.com/p/song-for-matt.html">http://bikegrrrl.blogspot.com/p/song-for-matt.html</a><br />
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It has helped me to write about him, to laugh, to cry, and to talk to him still. And so I post this here in the hopes that it will help all of you who loved him as well. <br />
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~stefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-75092384752429325692010-12-16T12:29:00.000-08:002010-12-16T19:47:42.711-08:0012/16/2010 NO WORDS CAN EVER TRULY DUE MATT JUSTICE.On December 14Th 2010 Matthew Robert Hardie passed away at Hospice, after a heroic effort to overcome his injuries and become the man he once was. Matt fought very hard these lasts months BUT in the end his WILL could not over come the damage done to his body<strong><span style="font-size:130%;">. </span></strong><br /><br /><p align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">The instant one leaves the body is no more than a change of clothes, worn out clothes, bearing the marks of age or bearing the marks of youth and a well lived life. We leave it, trade it in for another, and our spiritual evolution and adventure goes on.</span></strong></p><p>I wish I could say more.........but there is nothing I could write or any words that would ever really truly capture the Magic that was Matt</p>Our family is grieving the loss of an irreplaceable person, so I would like to thank all of you for your understanding during this difficult time. You have all been supportive, strong, kind, generous, and human. Matt would have been touched to see how many of you came to our aid during the time of his accident and now at this time of great sorrow.<br /><br /><br />We all knew Matt in different ways, different years, different zip codes, and sometimes it seemed in different lifetimes but what we all have in common are the wonderful memories Matt has left us with. We have memories of his ravenous appetite for reading and information, his large heart (which he often wore on his sleeve), his love of political discussions/arguments, his passion for people and making the world a better place but most of he left us with the wonderful memory that is just HIM.<br /><br />Sometimes sorrow can be all consuming, and at this moments it is. I will try to post again as my grief permits. BUT.......<br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">.......I have to remind myself that some birds are not meant to be caged. Their feathers are just to BRIGHT. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. STILL, the place you live in is just that much more drab and empty now that they're gone.</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">I guess in the end, I just miss my friend and Brother</span></strong></div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></strong> </div><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span></strong></div>KHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-79446707959167014742010-12-05T08:17:00.001-08:002010-12-05T08:17:53.470-08:00Next steps for Matt<div>-------</div><div>This is on Kate's behalf: Hi everyone, Thanks so much for taking the time to think about Matt. There is no one in the world like him, and that is as evident in the great group of people who care about him as it was in his gap smile, his laugh, his unmatched sense of humor, giant heart, and his marvelous intellect. We just wanted to update you on possible next steps for him in the coming week. We have spent this week consulting with the doctors again, spending a lot of time with Matt, and thinking a lot about his needs, his prognosis, and what he would want. We have consulted with some really wonderful people at Hospice, and Matt is now on the waiting list for care there. They have a really wonderful house-like space where Eugene can come see him and family and friends can visit in a peaceful and comfortable environment for him. As I said before, Hospice might be a place where we monitor Matt's status, but for Matt it may likely be a place to find peace and to begin a new adventure while surrounded with friends and family who love him very much. Matt's friends were really important to him, and it means so much that he is important to so many of you, too. Matt is not yet at Hospice, and it is difficult to think about that new phase, but we wanted to let you know with as much time as possible to make plans to visit. We want to invite you to come visit Matt in the coming couple of weeks if you would like. This should be a calm and peaceful time for him, and we know you will respect that, as well as the fact that this is very hard transition for us to make. Please let me know if you would like to visit, and thank you for your thoughts and love for our sweet Matt.<br clear="all" /> -------</div><div> </div><div>Best,</div><div> </div><div>Alli Fetter-Harrott</div>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-23548147061721265682010-12-04T22:55:00.000-08:002010-12-05T00:05:41.863-08:00Dec 4thI am going to make this brief as I am still FULLY CONCENTRATING ON MATT and JACK.<br /><br />Matt is still in ICU and ventilator. He has Two great nurses that would like to stay with him while he is here. They usually get shifted around but are so touched by Matt, that they want to help in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Anway</span>. Matt seems to touch everyone he comes in contact with.<br /><br />I had the consult with a group of 8 people who ave looked over Matt's entire case. It will take awhile to get a post up that explains the situation well but a<br />close friend will be posting something tomorrow that will generalize it. She has been amazing and a huge support. She even came out to be with Matt, ME and Jack awhile ago.<br />Please he patient as things are changing on a day to day basis not to mention are family is going through a horrible ordeal during a time of year where many people are with family, and we might be losing ours.<br /><br /><br /><br />I wish I has more time to add (but am with Matt) However, I will add more after tomorrow.<br /><br />A few quick notes: Again I lost all My contacts ( phone jumped in a puddle) There are many people I need to call: Martha and Karl, Jenn Brewer, Laurie, and more people than I have time to mention. PLEASE SEND YOUR INFO!!<br /><br />I am very concerned that there are still people in Matt's life that do not know.If anyone knows how I can contact Matt's <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">fb</span> friends ( without adding adding that one by one to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">BO's</span> account) please let me know. I am also going through his phone again to leave messages. I would ask that if you could please text me your information that would be helpful. There are may people that I would like to call but don't have there info. You have all been amazing and I feel that my words do not convey the impact you all have made. Please feel free to call or email anyone you think many need to know about Matt's situation. He lived so many places and touched so many people, i would hate for someone to miss out seeing or sending a message to him. That reminds me anyone who wants to record there voice I urge you to do so!!!!!!!!!!! it could be a message, story, poem, reading a book, joke, political discussion, memory etc... I can assure you I will play them for him. I have <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">cd</span> player and an <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">ipod</span>.<br /><br />The nurses said his status were threw the roof, then when I came in and they lowered then raised again when I left. I believe this was not a coincidence, so as I said I urge you to send your voices for Matt to hear. I think is someway he knows you are there, and his stats prove it.<br /><br />Well<br />Each time I start to write I fall short..............................<br />All I can say is Jack is starting to realize the seriousness of what is going on and it is more than<br />heartbreaking. He lost my mom and still cannot fly kites, listen to classical music, and a bunch of other things. he was just starting to come out of his shell when he Matt came out. Please keep him in your thoughts as he has been amazing with all the Chaos. I will add more about jack tomorrow or Monday. Although this is about Matt, all of you close to him know that jack meant the world to him and was his favorite person. I can barely understand fathom what he is going through. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK WHITNEY STEWART FOR HER AMAZING GIFT. IT CAME AL THE PERFECT TIME AND ALMOST FELT LIKE SOMETHING MY MOM WOULD HAVE GIVEN TO US. IT IS HELPING JACK AND I IMMENSELY<br /> I would encourage Whitney to call me and not hesitate about giving me my space. I believe nothing but goodness will come from us talking. Again Thank you so much.<br /><br />That leads me to all of you. Your endurance and attention to this had been amazing. Know that Matt would be touched that he is not being forgotten. He believed in community and yo have all shown that is possible. Thank you are going against the grain and having attention spans <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">lol</span><br />I am working on a book of his drawings, words, pictures, etc... I know he was meant for greatness and still believe it is just around the corner. He was meant for big things and they will come to happen as time passes. Things have a way of happening as they should even if your heart is pulled out in the process<br /><br />I guess this post had no use full info ( sorry) I will update more and more often as things are changing so quickly. Thank yo for understanding that my time is spent with Matt and being there for jack. I cannot imagine being eleven and losing two of the closes people in your life within a year and a half. He is a real hero. Thank you hero's as well<br /><br />TO EVERYONE MY PHONE IS OPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /> AND I ENCOURAGE YOU TO VISIT OR SEND YOUR VOICE OR ETC...<br /><br />I am exhausted as usual and apologize for the non informative post. i am having a meeting Wednesday that will BE VERY VERY BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! plus Rich will be back.<br />Thank you all for your patience and understanding<br /><br /><br />on a end note if anyone (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Caleum</span> or Kyle) has copies of Matt's <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">TV</span> show. I will pay for them to be copied as they are very <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">special</span> to me. If anyone has video, pictures, DRAWINGS, or etc... I will pay to have them copied and sent to me. It <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">would</span> mean the world to collect these things as Matt moved around so much and was also so giving. i plan on putting them to good use. it is just right <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">NOW</span> i am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">focusing</span> on <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Matt</span>, who i think would like to see those shows:)<br /><br />take care, be well, eat good food, help someone you don't know, open your heart and love in a way you never have before, and live. If it seems as though I am distant, it is only because I have no time to focus on me there are many <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">technical</span> things to do and Matt has many needs. i just <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">want</span> you all to know that I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">trying</span> to take care of myself. Thank you and from now on if I cnno tupdate teh blog, i will have someone else do it, because things are changign so fast.<br /><br />Again call, visit, yell, scream, laugh, cry, or just be. Whatever you so just know you are welcome to call or visitKHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-8588398917592608742010-12-03T02:08:00.000-08:002010-12-04T22:55:20.571-08:00post from Dec 2nd (Old Post)might be helpful might not alot has changedMatt is still in the ICU at Providence. He is under isolation. That means the he is VERY SUSSEPTIBLE TO GERMS AND VERY SICK!!!!<br /><br />When you visit you must 1. Wear a robe<br /><br />2.Gloves<br /><br />3.Mask<br /><br />4.Then disrobe in room and sanatize<br /><br />5. Your really not suppossed to bring things in BUT I explained<br /><br />Matt's love of music and books and they conceded. (who could say<br /><br />no to that face)<br /><br /><br /><br />As I said Matt still has pneumonia. It is asperated Pneumoina and very heavy in the left lung. This could be for numerous reasons: tramua from teh accident, more nerological damage, or my guess THE NURSING HOME. He is being treated with antibiotics and just received a new one today.<br /><br />To give you an idea of how sick Matt is: A normal/healthy person can get over pneumonia in about ten days as they can cough to help expell mucus and etc... A normal/heathy person also can take about 6 full weeks to fully heal from start to finsh (the ten days is the brunt of it).<br /><br />Matt's pneumonia could go on and on and on............<br /><br /><br /><br />HE is off the ventilator and breathign on his own. HOWEVER, BREATHING IS A STRUGGLE!!!! EVERY BREATH TAKES INCREDIBLE EFFORT!!!! IT IS EXTREMELY HARD TO WATCH HIM TRY SO HARD TO SOMETHING WE ALL TAKE FOR GRANTED. HE IS INCREDIBLY STRONG AND I AM INCREDIBLY PROUD OF HIM!!!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />HE is suctioned about twice an hour (but could be suctioned more) The respitory nurses are great but you have to give him a break between suctions> Suctioning entails a tube that goes down his <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">trach</span> and into both lungs and suctions out the mucus. Even though Providence ICU has <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">the</span> best suction <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">machine</span> I have seen, this is still a HIGHLY <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">UNPLEASANT</span> THING TO HAVE DONE.<br /><br /><br /><br />I am meeting with a new team of doctors to asses Matt care tomorrow, because as you can guess a new hospital (Providence)means a hole new team of doctors and therapists. In some ways his moving has been <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">extremely</span> frustrating but on the other hand has been <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">extremely</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">positive</span>. His moving has allowed him not only a chance to be seen by many doctors and therapist (most who are at the top of their fields) but has <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">also</span> allowed us to get a fresh perspective <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">every time</span> he is seen<br /><br /><br /><br />I would like to take a moment to thank all the people who have helped Matt up <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">until</span> now. Many of these people have given him there own personal time <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">as well</span> as going above and beyond in his care. I feel very blessed that Matt has been in good hands ( minus the 2 days at <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">Nursing</span> Home) as his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">journey</span> continues.<br /><br /><br /><br />I would also again like to say it is three am so I am sorry if none of this made sense. I will post tomorrow after the consult.<br /><br /><br /><br />On a few quick end notes: I would AGAIN <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">like</span> to thank you all for <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">your</span> support both <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">financial</span> and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">emotional</span>. As I said before Matt would be very touched to see he'd friends <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">making</span> such an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">enormous</span> impact on his and our lives. Each of you has carried an <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">enormous</span> weight<br /><br />since the accident happened and i would like to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">thank</span> you each of you for carrying that weight<br /><br />for making my load a little lighter.<br /><br /><br /><br />As I said Matt is sick but I encourage ANYONE who wants to visit to come. Both Rich and My house are open. I figure with the holidays people <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">might</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">have</span> time off ,so I just wanted to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">put</span> it out there. If anyone has questions or is trying to figure out when to come please don"t hesitate to come. Also if you cannot afford it but would <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">like</span> to come, call me<br /><br /><br /><br />I know this was a small update and I will get something up after are consult but I just wanted to take a moment to discuss Matt's nephew Jack. As you all know Matt was <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">unbelievably</span> close to my son. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">In fact</span> this is the second time he has moved to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">Spokane</span> to be with him/us. Jack was just adjusting to the lose of out <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">Matriarch</span> ( my mom his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">grand mom</span>) When Matt moved to be with us. Matt was just settling into his role as favorite uncle riding bikes, reading jack to sleep, filling his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">Head</span> with liberal propaganda and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_31">making</span> him question <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_32">authoirty</span>, all the thing uncles do and then the accident. I cannot continue to right as the lump in throat is no longer a <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_33">lump</span> but a stream of tears. I would like to thank all the people who have emailed about Jack's <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_34">Christmas</span> and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_35">realize</span> that this is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_36">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_37">second</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_38">xmas</span> without my mom and the first with <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_39">Matt</span> farther away than he has <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_40">been</span> ever.<br /><br />I will post somethings that could help me <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_41">concerning</span> jack's <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_42">Christmas</span> Sunday Dec 5<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_43">th</span> or 6<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_44">th</span>KHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-3251342281466551972010-11-30T02:45:00.000-08:002010-12-04T12:20:49.362-08:00Update on Matt after second trip 11/29I just got back from the ICU and it is two am so I am going to make this brief, but will put something up tomorrow. I might have found a piggy back, YEAH ( I think Matt would be proud if he knew I was posting all my blog's without buying Internet, as they are a monopoly here Lol )<br /><br />I am hoping to catch the doctor tomorrow and get to meet with Providence's Neuro people, cross your fingers.<br /><br />The good new is they have him on a cocktail of antibiotics. They got his labs back and have isolated the type of pneumonia. The antibiotics seem to be working but will take a few days.<br />THE BAD NEWS IS: Matt is again on a ventilator. That means he is breathing somewhat on his own but with the help of a machine. The ventilator helps control the volume, among other things. Regardless of its job or if it is a set back, Matt seems much more comfortable. It was very hard to see him struggling to breath. Now that he is on the ventilator he is more at ease and it is much easier for him to breathe. I met with Respiratory {therapist} about 1 am and she said he seems to being doing a lot better. SHE is a suction master and that is always a plus in a respiratory therapist.<br />He's breathing was very troublesome early today (almost to hard to watch and very scary) but now with the ventilator, he seems much more comfortable. I am not sure how long he will be on the vent. In someway I would like him to get off but that means back to nursing home. If he stays on vent it is back to IDAHO ( YEAH!!) THOSE ARE ME AND MATT'S PEEPS. They love him their and always give him extra attention and care. Plus it is a hospital.<br /><br />In addition to his breathing, his arm is more relaxed. I have been working with it so I am happy to see that he may be more comfortable - even if he still cannot use his right or left hand. I also worked with the staff about how to position his head. He is definitely more comfortable now that I have shown them what the Hardie Method is. Please don't get me wrong: they also take a lot of initiative and try to make him comfortable as well. As I said it is terrible for him to be in an ICU and may show what I feared ( decline in his all around health, or just a bad nursing home) but the care in the hospital is far superior and that makes me feel a little better. I just want to reiterate that he is stable. Pneumonia is serious and we will be taking this day by day. I just want you to know that he is in a place that has the tools and professional to take care of him at the standard I prefer or at least close (nothing has ever been good enough for Matt in my eyes, wait was that a bad girlfriend joke lol.) To be honest, there is one girlfriend in particular that has been stellar. I will leave her nameless for now but she knows who she is and how much she has helped. To her I say, "I found my blackberry PIN, talk to you soon."<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">That is not to say that all of you have not been amazing. Each of you is part of Matt's journey. You have each brought yourselves to the table and with that - your special gifts. I am thankful Matt has such caring and devoted friends. Thank You</span><br /><br />Sorry to make this so brief but I am up at 4 tomorrow. I also talked to Rich and we will be meeting with Hospice of Spokane. They have come highly recommended from my doctor ( who is a friend and someone I hold in high regard) If things were to line up as they should, it would be great to move him from the ICU to hospice. I am not sure if Hospice is a long shot but whatever happens will happen as it should. I am, however, leaning on making whatever happens be what I want to happen :-)<br /><br />NOW BEFORE YOU ALL PANIC: HOSPICE does not mean we are ending care but it is for people with less than 6 months. It would and could be a place for Matt to recover ( after which he would then move on to a rehab facility) or it could be a place for him to be at his most comfortable as he goes on another adventure.<br /><br />We are only looking into this so please hold all questions, until I have further information. On a personal note I would be honored to work with Hospice as we know some of the nurses and Matt always agreed with their philosophies.<br /><br />Again.... Thanks you all for your support.KHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-75501128395538679362010-11-29T12:57:00.000-08:002010-12-04T12:19:28.246-08:00Up date on Matt 11/29To everyone,<br /><br />First off I would like to again thank everyone for their support! You have all provided such wonderful emotional and financial support. When I have time I will personally send each of you who donated a card, showing just how your donation helped Matt (but no fighting over who got to buy him his foo foo shampoo). You all have been incredibly selfless during this time of economic hardship. I know many of you are students or just getting into the job market. I also figure some of you are much like Bo and I and are just starting to carve out a niche for yourselves or yourselves and your families, I am grateful for your sacrifice.<br />My guess to is that there are a lot of you like Matt who were so passionate is took them awhile to find there way, to those I say MATT would take passion over a paycheck any day, HIZZA!!!!<br /><br />(f anyone is interested I would be happy to type up something filling you in on Matt's life, he has many adventures. He has always loved and been loved along the way. I know many of you were in and out of touch. To these people I say:<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"> "They say everlasting friends can go long periods of time without ever speaking and never question the friendship. These types of friends can pick up like they just spoke yesterday, regardless of how long it has been or how faraway they live. They don't judge or hold grudges. They just accept. They understand that life is.......... </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">They will always be friends, they will always be there for each other, they will always love each other, and most important they WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS.</span></strong>"<br /></div><strong><span style="font-size:130%;"> ( super cheesy but true, plus I am too tired</span></strong> <strong><span style="font-size:130%;">to catalog my brain for something </span></strong><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">better) </span></strong><br /><br />I also want to thank yo for your understanding about me having NO TIME to update the blog. I am working on getting Internet ( Matt was helping when he moved out to Spokane and was with us. He was so amazing as an older brother!) When we moved we lost sharing with the library. I should have it up and running within the week ( if things permit). I need wireless for the whole house at a pretty high speed ( you can watch nursing video's at home, instead of at the school if you have a high enough speed). If any of you tech savvy people can tell me the best route to go that would be great. Me and Matt were going to pick up a router from craigslist and now I can't remember what kind on Internet he said to get after. If anyone has a few good ideas, it would make updating SO much easier. I have so much to share and am also glad to hear that all of you have not faded away. I would like to start updating more as things are now changing on a very fast basis, sometimes daily. I repeat Matt is stable and alive and nobody needs to panic! So again thank you and I will try to sit down every night or two from now on even if to just type a few sentences. You have all been so great by following the Blog, I feel I should better to inform you on Matt's condition.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">UPDATE ON MATT</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:100%;">Matt moved to the nursing home on Monday afternoon. ( If anyone needs he address, please ask and I will post it) . I was there for transport, and as things go it is as far away as it could be. It is about the same distance as Post Falls only harder to get to because, you can't jump on the freeway. He seemed uncomfortable at first and very agitated. After they moved him I gave him a massage and changed his linens. We then listen to some Jazz and read two books ( I try to change it up) He seemed much more relaxed after we got settled.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He is very sensitive and now that he has a roommate (who watches TV, screams, and etc..) it is difficult. I am trying to get him moved into a room with someone a little more at his level.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">The Nursing Home has four stars out of five but that is there score. I give them a big finger ( guess which one, sorry to offend anyone). They are a typical nursing home. I would even say under average, as I have worked at nursing homes here in Spokane. The Doctor is in twice a week, but has over 60 patients. He specializes in geriatrics, so I would not count on a lot of Nero help for new treatments ( although I am working on it and there are still some ideas) Doctor G ( who is way cool, and they only one who gave Matt a chance) is still consulting with us. She has been amazing and given a lot of extra attention to us. She once told me on a phone call "you can't help but fall in love with Matt" Amazing even in a coma, Matt gets a women to fall in love with him Lol.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He does have a nurse everyday but she also had many patients, so the care is at a level way less than in Idaho. He will still get respiratory therapy, Physical therapy, and Occupational therapy.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am working closely with all of these people. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">I will be able to update you more as he is there longer.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">THE BIG NEWS IS: that he contracted pneumonia on Thanksgiving and has now been moved to the ICU at Providence in Spokane. He is stable! He has all the things that go along with having Pneumonia: fever, trouble breathing, lowered immune system, longer trach but not bigger in diameter, etc...<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He is stable and is not in danger of dying! However, pneumonia is never good for someone in his condition. They are starting him on antibiotics. They still start will a general like Leviquin and then after his sputum sample comes back they will be able to isolate what kind of pnemonia it is and treat it with more specialized antibiotics, an antibiotic that is just for that strain he has.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">The good news in he is in ICU. HUH you ask, well the care is better there and he is monitored all the time. The people who take care of him are at a higher caliber. THE BIGGEST THING IS I AM WORKING ON GETTING ANOTHER NEURO DOC TO LOOK AT HIM. I am guessing with my persistence and maybe a call from Doctor G , we can make it happen :) She works within that hospitals group, so I am very hopeful. However, I do not want to raise any hopes. Everyone up till now has said there will not be a good outcome, except Dr. G and she said that as the most optimistic. She also said that we are fighting MAJOR ODDS and that realistically there is a little chance he will wake up. Everyday that he does not wake up is MAJOR. If he doesn't wake in around 3 months for the accident, she can almost tell us 100 percent that he will not. Then you have to take into consideration in what state he will wake up in? if at all. I am sorry to be so harsh but that is the reality of this situation and I want everyone to feel we are being upfront. Although it seems things we are going bad, I think HOPE IS ALWAYS AMONG US AND MATT HAS ALWAYS BEEN A FIGHTER<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I would like to assure you we are doing ALL we can!!!!!!!! </span><span style="font-size:100%;">We are doing everything we feel Matt would want us to. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am even having a medicine man and Shaman come in ( can you even imagine the look on Matt's face if he knew I was trying this)<br /><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:100%;" >I am home for a moment and will be back up to hospital shortly. I will then update the blog.</span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Since it has been awhile, here are a few random updates:<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">We still have seen no movement out of Matt's left hand but I am still working on it.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"> I have some time to research things, but Steph has been a great help!!! If you have any information that you think helpful you can email me directly at <a href="mailto:katherine_hardie@yahooo.com">katherine_hardie@yahooo.com</a> it will be easier for me to get it and put it into action if it is something that can help. However, please remember that every brain injury and person's physiology is different. Matt has shearing which is very severe. You may see people walking 2 months after waking up ( in-fact we had a friend in a coma 3 months, who can, with impairment,walk and talk now. This only took him two months to do in rehab. So please understand every brain injury is not the same. If it would be helpful and is ok with Rich, I could post the MRI and some doctors reports. I am not sure if that would be helpful or not, please let me know.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He is opening his eyes less and less often, but it is common for him to be exhausted easily.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /><strong>INFO FROM WHEN HE WAS IN IDAHO</strong><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">In Idaho he could move his right hand, HE EVEN DID A THUMBS UP!!!! and looked at me. There was some conflicting reports but some people though the was tracking for about 30 seconds.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He could wiggle his toes. In fact Ally made a CD of camp K songs that really got his toes moving. Who knew that Matt was a closet hip hop/gangster rap lover lol. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">He cannot some his left leg and he can slightly pull up his right. <br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He only sweats through the right half of his face ( not through armpits, feet, etc..) this shows extensive damage to his left side. He also mostly likely has damage to his right as well.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">In Idaho has right hand started to posture, which is different from contracting. From what the physical therapist said, range of motion cannot fix this problem ( I do continue to do range of motion, along with salves and massage.) The posturing is directly related to the Neurological damage. We tried a splint, but it would only cause him to not be able to use his right hand. It lame terms it was not correcting the posturing. It was only keeping his arm down from raising to his chin, not correcting his hand.This is problematic because if Matt's hand postures in this way, he will hav no use of it.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">This leads me to the next issue. His head has started posturing to the right in Idaho and has gotten so bad that it cannot move. It is basically stuck looking to the right. Again, they think this is neurological. I am trying my best to keep working on it and at least get it centered, but it may never happen. I can assure you that I am keeping him as comfortable as possible, even though he is in this position. I got an a great gel pillow from Idaho ( shhh the nurses and pt gave it to me) and have found a way to place the pillows so he is the most comfortable.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Matt is still in a clam-shell brace when up in a wheel chair. He does not have to wear it in bed. Although this makes me worry about spine alignment, it is much more comfprtable for him.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">He still has many fractures in his back (none paralyzing) .<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">They have assured us that he does not need surgery and that if we continue the clam-shell and alignment in bed, they will heal on there own.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am still not convinced that his back does not need surgery, but at this point it is not an option. However, I do continuly bring it up to everyone:)<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Matt has been listening to music, Although, I cannot play all music he likes yet ( might be to much stimulation) I am slowly playing more of his favorites. You can only listen to so much classical and etc.. for Nero help. He still is an avid reader, yet he prefers for me to read to him. This is great way for me to feel superior for all those years back when we were little and I wanted to play Yahtzee and he wanted to play trivial pursuit.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">We have been reading a range of books, but are up for suggestions.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I have also been working with cards. Since he can no longer communicate with his right hand, I have been trying to get him to communicate with his eyes. I feel that this is easiest way for him. I am working on getting him to track right now, which is difficult BUT I THINK HE DID IT FOR THE FIRST TIME ON THANKSGIVING!<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I think he looked down at the cards. He then looked up and down at another card.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Again, please do not get overly excited. They say that family is often delusional about reactions. However, I think we are more prone to understand his non verbal cues and that is why I am continuly working on having him be able to communicate anyway he can.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I am going to wrap this up as I am heading back up to hospital. As a said I will try to update teh blog after I have been up there tonight ( it might be very late or early morning)<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Right now I while he is in ICU, i am just working on his comfort level and beating that pneumonia.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">When he is healthy enough and back at teh nursing home, we will continue to work on his physical, and occupational therapy ( theirs and mine) .<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"> I wish I had more time, as their is so much I would like to say..............<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">You all have been incredible and I think Matt would be very happy and proud to see a group of people band together for a cause. He often talked about many of you to me. To those I know and those I don't.......Matt held his friends very close to his heart. He may not have always been teh first to call or the first to call back ever lol, but know that all of you had a special place in his heart.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">To his new and old friends of Matt's and anyone in between: know that I am doing my best to take care of Matt as I think he would want and as I know he would do for me. The only thing that sucks, is Matt would have already had this figured out ( man I loved that brain, in fact I loved everything from his often cheese smelling feet to his curls.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">I wish I could post some quote to leave you all with, that would leave you with some sense of peace but I think right now the best advice I can give is to: take care of yourselves, live life, appreciate the day, think of Matt when it is good for you, have a fearless compassionate attitude toward your own pain and that of others, and most importantly love and be loved as Matt is and did.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Know that anyone of you are welcome anytime at my home.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">On a side note: I am looking into Hospice of Spokane. I know that we would all want Matt to have ANY options available as we continue this journey.<br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;">Sorry if this post is out of order, little time and very tired.<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span>KHardiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12674573222950044789noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-49032955451109098292010-11-24T19:53:00.000-08:002010-11-24T19:53:50.043-08:00Thankgiving Update<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Hi all,</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I just spoke with Kate and she wanted me to put up a little update. Matt has been moved to a nursing home in Spokane, about 40 minutes away from where Kate, Bo and Jack live. He was a little agitated during the move, I guess, but has settled in and has a roommate (a Buddhist). The team and doctor at the home are re-assessing where Matt is physically and cognitively and what treatments to consider. </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Because of Kate's nursing certification, they're letting her help with him more than they would most family members so she's able to be there a lot. She learned some new massage and pressure point techniques to help with some issues like Matt was grinding his teeth a lot and he's not doing that nearly as much. She's reading a science fiction book to Matt (and an anti-corporation book is next on the list-- he'll like that, I'm sure!). Eugene is doing well. </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">She said thank you to everyone for the donations which are allowing her to pay for the gas to get back and forth from the (still quite far) nursing home. She goes there every day and will be there tomorrow to spend Thanksgiving with her brother. I know all have said this but I just have to say it is incredibly moving to see how hard she is working for her brother. We'd all be lucky to have someone like Kate in our lives during difficult times. </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Alison </span>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-55293965137549279442010-11-18T14:55:00.000-08:002010-11-18T14:55:08.286-08:00The Odds to BeatI haven't talked to Kate yet today but we've exchanged texts back and forth regarding the meeting at the hospital yesterday. She indicated that what I had predicted the doctors/administrators would talk about today was indeed correct. I'll call it the 'odds game' for lack of a better term though, in Matt's case, I'd rather call it "the Odds to Beat" because I know Matt would want to beat these odds as well. He's already beat the coma odds. Why stop there?<br />
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There is nothing 'light-hearted' in these odds, however. I don't mean to be glib. From the recently posted pictures (all of which tore at my heart just a little bit further) and from brief discussions on the extent of Matt's brain injury (see post on diffuse axonal injury - DAI), I am assuming that Matt's DAI is moderate to severe. In cases of severe DAI, the chance of recovering from/coming out of a coma are less than 10%. The numbers are less clear for moderate DAI but are somewhere in the 20 percentile range. For those who do come out of their coma, most are moderately to severely impaired. The severity of impairment relates directly back to the severity of the axonal damage (DAI) which relates directly to the force of the impact (how hard the brain hit the skull as it was forced to decelerate from a higher speed). Since Matt was on a bike (not in a car) he was traveling at a moderate speed (not a high speed like 60+ mph) and, therefore, the force of his deceleration would not be as great as the forces at work during a car crash. I hope that makes sense. It is still serious but there may be less damage to axons (moderate damage vs severe).<br />
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In any case, the doctors would weigh all of this information along with his MRIs and progress to date. Knowing that his chances of full recovery are slim and that the likelihood of him being moderately to severely impaired is around 80-90% (based on previous clinical cases), they would make the decision to transfer him to a facility that deals with the moderately/severely impaired in order to open up a bed for someone whose probability of recovery is, perhaps, 50/50. None of it seems fair nor does it seem to take into account the patient's best interest or the proper time necessary for recovery. However, to doctors/administrators, clinical case evidence is what they have to go on; and with administrators/insurance companies pushing for a free bed (for whatever reason but I suspect they do not view Matt as a primary candidate for their comprehensive resources) this is their only alternative. I'm not defending there decisions. Bouncing critical care patients around is nasty busy for both patients and families. <br />
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This is, however, just my interpretation. As I said, Kate and I bounce text messages back and forth like lightning some times. I'm sure much gets muddled in the translation.<br />
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Right now, we all have time - time to re-evaluate and reflect upon the situation that has brought us all together. There is no longer the urgency of 'life and death' but now the more painstaking process of 'watch and wait'. I often wonder which I loath more. I also often wonder what Matt would do faced with the news of, and with seeing, me in the same state. I know he would be profoundly moved; utter a classic "damn"; offer his help/support; perhaps reach for a cigarette. I know he would find much injustice in the accident and in the state of my semi-conscious life.<br />
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Regardless of how this progresses and how long it takes, I know his biggest concern would be for Kate and for Jack. He would not want them to worry nor to be hurt further by this incident. He would want to protect them, to help them, to care for them. I feel that is now my primary responsibility / our primary responsibility in this situation. If we do one thing for him, it should be to support and love his family the way he would want to. I intend to do just that. for him.<br />
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StefUnknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-31045471062226684492010-11-17T19:12:00.000-08:002010-11-17T19:12:46.789-08:00Video Slideshow of Matt as Pirate, Jack's Birthday Party<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dzNTUYSq0GstZ0xLVg2VpS-MVm6YvAWm7vR8snVBGupneLgjQMaWOMrUAgtTVgPlQ7AfQopV21GApFDpVrNnw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-19094854357490872292010-11-16T16:42:00.000-08:002010-12-04T12:22:09.415-08:00Day 16 / update on Matt2nd call from Kate tonight:<br /><ul><li>Matt's eyes are tracking more often</li><li>he is breathing more on his own but they can't reverse tracheotomy (sp?) until he's actually aware that he needs to keep his tongue back so he doesn't gag on it</li><li>Kate is checking on this but it seems that NIACH is planning on moving Matt to basically what we would call a nursing home</li><li>she's planning on meeting with the head doc at NIACH tomorrow morning to find out what' going on, what he thinks of Matt's progress, etc.</li><li>He's doing his 'thumbs-up" for response still</li></ul>The nursing home he would be going to is NOT the one that they'd talked about in their meeting; from what I understand, it would be a place - not where people go for rehab - but a place that takes care of people in Matt's condition, as it is now, for long long term.<br /><br />I find it odd the way they/the hospital decides to move Matt...and then...we find out from a nurse - strange.<br /><br />Waiting for Kate AND Rich to call me back - a lot going on. It's just breaks my heart to hear the anguish in Kate's voice, the tiredness, and not be able to be there in person. I will tell you one thing, she is made of steel. That's the reason she has to call me back. It's 5pm there, I guess, and she's bound and determined to get one of the docs on the phone - NOW!Susihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13672588027309885875noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-37623941558835214322010-11-16T15:08:00.000-08:002010-11-21T11:57:41.894-08:00Here's what I'm trying to work on...<span style="font-size:85%;"> <span style="font-size:78%;">It's really hard being the 'main' person in a situation like this. I know what it's like & probably many of you do also. (The reason I'm having a hard time getting the specific answers is because she doesn't feel comfortable asking for help....also, because she doesn't have any other family out there, besides Bo, Jack & Rich...</span><span style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" >or her mom,</span><span style="font-size:78%;"> and she feels so alone, I just try to listen and encourage her and talk through things that are bothering her...so, point being..</span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:78%;" >.I don't get to the part where I ask what kind of dog food Eugene eats or what size exactly does Jack wear. Even if I do, she may want to talk about Matt, what he was like at the hospital that day, what doctors she was able to talk to, what do we think think will happen in the next month, etc. </span><span style="font-size:78%;"><br />I do know that, altho she is really good at saving & budgeting (no clothes for herself for 3 years; she'd rather that Jack have decent clothes -that fit!) she can't handle the financial onslaught coming at her.<br /><br />To help Kate be able to help Matt, this is what I'm going to try to do<br /></span></span><ul><li><span style="font-size:78%;">get name of gas station she uses (so someone can donate a gas card)</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">Eugene's (Matt's dog) food costs $45 - just don't know the brand<br /></span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">Jack's clothes sizes (he outgrew 3 -yes 3!- new pairs of jeans that she bought him a month ago; he is at that size where he doesn't fit in the large boys or the mens small....that's a tough phase</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">name of her grocery store (for a grocery card)</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">types of foods that Kate, Bo & Jack like to eat (she buys healthy food, when she was talking on the phone to me while at the grocery store, she commented, "What kind of grocery store doesn't have organic carrots?"</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">find out what the heck the problem is with the Sprint service in Spokane</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">snacks that Kate likes since she is in the car a lot now</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">car panel (for repair) - cost of that</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">Xmas for Jack (she's worried that, on top of her being gone now when he's home from school, she is not going to be able to make a really good Xmas for Jack - since Matt won't be there - and Jack has been really helpful while his mom is trying to do what she can for Matt</span></li><li><span style="font-size:78%;">Haircuts - I"m sure that's coming up</span></li><li><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-size:78%;">Wrapping paper, etc.</span><br /></span></li></ul><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span>Susihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13672588027309885875noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5160224893857364135.post-55791009543458351972010-11-16T14:19:00.000-08:002010-11-16T14:55:02.908-08:00A month & a half after Matt's Oct 4 accidentKate & I were talking as she drove to visit Matt; she puts me on speakerphone, it's a little rough for conversation but it's one of the few times we can talk 'alone' - smile. When she got to his room, he was in his wheelchair so she told me she'd call back. Her voice sounds so much younger & carefree & excited when she sees Matt doing something - it's kind of bittersweet.<br />I titled this post 'A month & a half' for a reason. The reason we have this blog to post on, courtesy of Alison, is to keep tabs on Matt's progress. But, it strikes me that....in this godawful month & a half....how much this has not only affected Kate, Bo & Jack's and Rich's life but has really pushed them to their limits - in many ways. Obviously, we all care about Matt & want him to get better. But, I am realizing that there are secondary casulties from Matt's accident. I know that Kate is gone a lot from home now and that's an abrupt change for Jack. When she gets home, she's tired. She's worried about everything she's not able to do right now & what will the future hold for Matt?<br />Before Matt's accident, they were talking about how this will be the 2nd Xmas without Anne ...and that was a pretty big deal. Now, as Kate said, "We have one LESS person at Christmastime. Matt was so bonded with Jack." Then, she goes on to say that she's 'ok, just having a little pity party....things will be fine, etc." - she worries that I'll get upset and sad when she talks about the hard parts.<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">I know this blog is about Matt, but since Kate is the one actually checking on Matt...it's sort of about her, too. I think there will be another month & a half of this, at least.</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> I'm going to get a list together, with specifics, and see if maybe,<span style="font-style: italic;"> together</span> we can help Kate so she doesn't get worn out not only taking care of her own family, of herself<br />but also doing everything she can to help Matt.</span><br /></div>Susihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13672588027309885875noreply@blogger.com0